when i scribble

Thousand words,say nothing at all,
when its not from your heart.
hypocrites are many,they smile, they lie
am i an easy prey, am i that vulnerable
who are they, who make me,
who are they who take me
am i the best you've ever seen.
y did i trust you, in your smile, in your lies.
life, why did it stand still,
life, when did it veer away from my will
whom do we serve, whom do we protect,
messengers are nothin but a fictitious sect.
love or hate, what do i chose,
love a little , hate a little,
life moves on inch by inch.
is this human, is this divine.
answers who, nobodys fine.
sleeping with the dead side by side do i see,
he never smiles he never sees
he just rots and losses his flesh,
but the memories remain, so does his guilt.
i carry in my soul, the sapling of malign
the sprouts of deceit ,u nursed me well.
were u blind , were u deaf,
or were u just plain insane.
y did u laugh and y did u cry,
were u ever real, or were u just in my mind
and y do u still smile, knowing uve killed my mind.